In the course of this project, I’ve often stopped to wonder what my mom would think about it. It’s not that out of the ordinary since I tend to think that about most things lately. What would my mom think about me meeting Cynthia Nixon (yes, this happened!). What would my mom think about these new jeans I just bought? What would my mom think about my toothache? But what would my mom think about this blog? That’s one I keep coming back to.
On one hand, I think my mom would certainly be embarrassed. She was never one to seek the spotlight. She did many good things during her life, but she never did them for the attention. In fact, too much attention tended to fluster her. And this blog? It’s a whole lot of attention.
On the other hand, I think (and hope!) my mom would love it. She would be quietly flattered, she would really enjoy the book discussions (especially about books she was so obviously interested in), and, I’ll admit, she would probably be proud of just about anything I wrote.
With all of this in mind, I must point out something strange. In the top right-hand corner of the blog’s main page, if you look carefully, you can see a small smiley face. I’m pretty sure it wasn’t there when I started the blog, and must have appeared sometime during the first week or two. I have no idea how it got there. So now I like to think it’s a little sign from my mom that she is in some way smiling down on me and this blog. (It’s the least she could do if she can’t even correct my typos).
Do I really believe in supernatural things like that? No, not at all. But it’s a nice thought. And even if she isn’t showing her approval via some mysterious technological intervention, I’d like to go on thinking that somewhere my mom is pleased.
UPDATE: Apparently the smiley face only appears on certain browsers so if you can’t see it, please don’t think I’m crazy.